It feels like I’m losing her. That my only options now are to sit back and wait for it to happen. She’s stopped eating and drinking. Only taking in little to no food or water each day. No one can convince her otherwise. ” I’ll eat when I’m ready”
I fear she’s going to die.
Or that she will be put into the hospital and from there it’s a toss up. Our hospitals sure have a way of letting sick people die when they’re admitted. Perhaps it’s just the nature of the beast? Perhaps they’re just destined to be….dead?
I’m sorry I only post these posts of depression lately. I’m in a hard point of my life… I’m terrified.
I love her so much, she is my mother. I’d take it all away for her if I could. My faith (or lack there of) is being tested. I”m furious with the God(s), with science, with medicine. We came into this hopeful, this wouldn’t take her down.
She’s been through so much .. She’s so strong, she’s a fighter.
Are we all allowed a time to just give up and let go?
Should I accept this? If so, how does one accept this? It’s not time. It’s not her time.
-Hang in there!